/zellig/ - Ongezellig

the zellig sisters are so fucking attractive i cant take it anymore literally every time my mind is absent it wanders to scenarios of me having sex with all of them, ill imagine myself fucking mymy until i fall asleep and ive even improved my sleep schedule so when i dream these scenarios i'll remember it, its gotten to the point where on occasion i forget they arent actually real, like i'll be making food and think about what they would like to eat before i snap back to reality and my heart drops knowing i will never be able to spend the rest of my life them, let alone spend any time with them at all beyond the screen and my imagination. Why even fucking live at this point? no woman could ever compare to any of them, no person at all could ever compare to any of them in any aspect because they will never be them, i dont even fucking know anymore. I've been suicidal for a long time and as silly as it sounds i really do think this is a driving factor behind it, even just talking to any of them would fix half my problems and give me the motivation to fix the rest but it just eats away at me every fucking second that it isnt possible, at least if i was some retarded troon i could delude myself into thinking of myself as one of them or some schizo actually being able to really see and hear and feel them but nope, have fun with another wet dream and the following disappointment retard! its not even just the "omgsisa!" sexual shit either, i really do just want to be with them but whatever man, i dont even know. fuck this shit